waking up late knowing i could sleep more if i wanted to having the option of going to the gym :) w/ all the equipment knowing my friends are within a ~10 mile radius eating home cooked meals and mother dearest makes booked weeks, seeing old friends, seeing bestfriend[s] talking, and talking, not studying !!! yayyyy break
A girl you take advantage of. I want to be loved like I'm the only person you think about. I want to be visited and smothered in your love. I want you to want to hug me as tight as you can when we finally see each other. I want to be the girl you make it a point to call just to say hello. I want so many things sometimes, that I end up setting myself up for disappointment.
I want to be talked to. I don't want to feel like I'm yearning for every call I can get. I feel so menstrual. I just don't want to be taken for granted. FML, please love me like I should be.
I feel like after every week, I seem to morph and act more and more like my MSMC girls. I'm not one for the R&B/HipHop but I seem to be liking it alot more lately. I guess I'm easily influenced, I'm not going to deny it anymore. I'm your playdoh, play with me how ever you like.
I have also observed that I've become less profound, which is very unfortunate. I do know alot of scientific terms and processes though. Ehh.. you gain some you lose some. This is only temporary, at least I hope so.
I'm less confused now, well actually, I'm still confused. Sometimes I never know what my mind wants, its really frustrating. I think I know myself, but I really don't. I don't have a specific pattern or cycle I go through like most people. I don't know when I'm going to mind or consider it to miniscule to even matter. Why is life so complicating? Better yet, why am I so complicated?
